ailurophile

she looked up the starry skies she felt at calm and peace a feeling that she had been longing for a long time ago while listening to her favourite song a tear rolled down her cheeks she closed her eyes reminiscing all her memories everything seems fade away the only thing that left is pain and scars she tried to hold the tears but she failed she was alone she wished to be like those stars at that moment, she felt lost as if she had no one else left with her she had no one to rely on everyone thought she could handle her life all by herself everyone thought she was okay everyone thought she enjoyed her life that much everyone thought she was strong enough to hold her tears back everyone thought she was living her dreams everyone thought she was surrounded with people But everyone never know and never try to know the girl that they thought can handle her life was actually miserable and had been thinking to suicide they do not know that the girl they thought was oka...

she's the girl who dreamt of happiness but once before she asked to God about something that no one wants in her pain and tears, she wished it so bad but now, when the rainbow starting to chase away the dark clouds, her wish comes after her God had granted her wish her wish haunted her and started to get into her rainbow she started to think, what if... her inner side consoled her by saying nothing will happen . everything is gonna be alright day by day, her wish started to show up and slowly it gets into her "ahh maybe it just something with no big deal" she said "it's common" "c'one, don't be too into it" she tried to share the story of her wish to others, but everyone did not take aback with that and she really wish she would have the same thought like them so she  constantly keep herself away from the thought and collected the remaining pieces of courage that she had before trying to blend well and fit in ;well it works o...

Wow it has been a long time ago since my last entry. It's been a while huh? So someone reminds me bout this so I thought why not to make a new entry 😛 well while doing this am lying on ma bed after bukak buku hm study la sangat 🌚 so tomorrow am going to start my exam week which will be definitely a hectic and topsy turvy week  for me 😫 me. Hate. Exam. So. Much. Who on earth invent this so called evaluation system? Srsly?? There's nothing much to tell about my life okay am doing and living well(setakat ni)  in um and ermm nothing much la. Oohh and haha I'm meeting someone *you know who you are dasar stalker haha God, I like everything about him! His smile, his voice, his laugh, haaa semua la. Idk why I got stucked with him but all I know is I am completely into him 😍 from the start, I've the gut but am scared to tell. I never knew that using a ghost picture as ws dp and used ws call to acah2 kacau in midnight would bring us together like now 🙈 hahahahaha Dear yo...

assalamualaikum so finally i`m back into blogging so if i am back,there must be a new story that i would like to write here my life is so pathetic lately i don`t know whether i am being too sensitive lately or sth else i cried a lot lately i had wasted my precious tears for hundred times i tried to hold them on but i failed i can`t i just can`t am i a failure? i am feeling so down right now all the things that i had achieved all this while seems wasteful or i can use the word useless all of them seems pointless there`s nobody appreciate what have i done is it hard? seriously,they hurt me they broke my heart mak had never see my kindness all she sees are the bad things about me i know that among all of my siblings,i am the most useless daughter i am a lazy one,a rebellious one they never see the good things about me it hurt sometimes when some deeds that you have done are being misjudged by them they can`t see angel in me i do realized that i am such a troubles...

hye and assalamualaikum it has been a long long time ago since my last entry seriously,many things have changed so am I I am officially graduated from stf and I am a srikandi but it doesn`t matter to me I don`t know how to start with this but right now my feelings are mix I don`t know how it can turn out like this I am feeling down right now just imagine your own sister talk bad about you is it really bothering her when I am fat??huh does she think that being who am I right now is my wish? I really want to cry right now why does she did this to me huh? I am trying so hard really hard until I can`t bear with it anymore I know sometimes she might think that it was just a joke I didn`t mind about it at all,at first but as she always do that,i am getting annoyed and I am hurt the cut is really deep and now it leaves a scar I never judge her I respect every single thing that she did and it really don`t bother me but why is she acting like that I hate her damn ...

I `m always feel like this.Feeling that no one would care about me.I don`t know whether I am the one who created this feeling or this feeling is really exist.Sometimes,I will feel happy and sometimes,not very well.Okay now ni,aku nak cerita lah.I do know that I am supposedly feel grateful because I do have A sister who really cares about me.She is studying at UTM.So,that means she is far away from our family.But once she come back home,I don`know what to say.There is a feeling which I feel that I am TOTALLY being ignored by my mother.I tau yang my sister memang lah rajin tolong my mom,unlike me.Tapi.....arghh,I do not know what to say.In my sight,she is a perfect sister,maybe?and a perfect daughter for my mother.But I do not like her well.She always compares me with herself.Like,yea I know right now I am getting chubbier..and I know maybe she was kidding.But,please,don`t compare anything about myself with herself.. Banyak lagi yng aku nak story the mory tapi,I could not bear it.Maybe ...