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the unheard stories

assalamualaikum
so finally i`m back into blogging
so if i am back,there must be a new story that i would like to write here
my life is so pathetic lately
i don`t know whether i am being too sensitive lately or sth else
i cried a lot lately
i had wasted my precious tears for hundred times
i tried to hold them on but i failed
i can`t
i just can`t
am i a failure?
i am feeling so down right now
all the things that i had achieved all this while seems wasteful
or i can use the word useless
all of them seems pointless
there`s nobody appreciate what have i done
is it hard?
seriously,they hurt me
they broke my heart
mak had never see my kindness
all she sees are the bad things about me
i know that among all of my siblings,i am the most useless daughter
i am a lazy one,a rebellious one
they never see the good things about me
it hurt sometimes when some deeds that you have done are being misjudged by them
they can`t see angel in me
i do realized that i am such a troublesome
i wish so bad that i could disappear
so that i won`t cry anymore
and i wish so hard that i am diagnosed with a serious illness
so that i can die and gone from their sight
for eternity
i know that i might seems like an ungrateful person
but who cares
i pray for it to the God day and night
seriously
i wanna go to a very far place
my dreamland
the land that will be ruled my me myself
my kingdom
and surrounded by people who love me damn much
those people who will appreciate me
and care about me

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