ailurophile

assalamualaikum so finally i`m back into blogging so if i am back,there must be a new story that i would like to write here my life is so pathetic lately i don`t know whether i am being too sensitive lately or sth else i cried a lot lately i had wasted my precious tears for hundred times i tried to hold them on but i failed i can`t i just can`t am i a failure? i am feeling so down right now all the things that i had achieved all this while seems wasteful or i can use the word useless all of them seems pointless there`s nobody appreciate what have i done is it hard? seriously,they hurt me they broke my heart mak had never see my kindness all she sees are the bad things about me i know that among all of my siblings,i am the most useless daughter i am a lazy one,a rebellious one they never see the good things about me it hurt sometimes when some deeds that you have done are being misjudged by them they can`t see angel in me i do realized that i am such a troubles...

hye and assalamualaikum it has been a long long time ago since my last entry seriously,many things have changed so am I I am officially graduated from stf and I am a srikandi but it doesn`t matter to me I don`t know how to start with this but right now my feelings are mix I don`t know how it can turn out like this I am feeling down right now just imagine your own sister talk bad about you is it really bothering her when I am fat??huh does she think that being who am I right now is my wish? I really want to cry right now why does she did this to me huh? I am trying so hard really hard until I can`t bear with it anymore I know sometimes she might think that it was just a joke I didn`t mind about it at all,at first but as she always do that,i am getting annoyed and I am hurt the cut is really deep and now it leaves a scar I never judge her I respect every single thing that she did and it really don`t bother me but why is she acting like that I hate her damn ...